monday.

hai. dah monday sudah. weekend wasted as usual. woke up early to do some slides for my presentation tomorrow, but then again, here i am, doing something else wasting my time again. pffts.

monday is not started yet, but i can already sense the gloomy-ness for the whole day.

anyways, lets start today with bismillah and lotsa smile!!!

Sampah sarap

So mcm mana rasa? Best tak? Hahahahahahaha *evil*

shoe hunt!!

what a nice surprise. =)

mak dan papa datang after my radiology exam. i got lucky, dapat penguji baik (like literally baik gila sampai i tak study datang2 terus exam) and boleh exam on saturday. mak dan papa datang hari sabtu sampai rabu, kejap je sbb papa ada work on thursday, tak lama and thank god ujian awal.

(shah exam on monday, but he still manage to pick papa and mak on sunday and hang out with us)

papa and mak datang bawak FOOD!! best gila. and also bawak camera baru and laptop baru! wheee!!!!!! (mengada gila kan? pfftsss thanks abang susah2 belikan! =)

....

Need to carry laptop around and do work whenever possible so that bila di rumah can tidur puas puas. Haha..

Mak nak dtg in 3weeks time. And rumah is a mess! And with workload tons to catch up I just don't know how to manage my time efficiently. (Obviously I tanak sacrifice my tidur time)

Kena masuk kelas time management lah mcm ni..hihi

Night! Need to bgn pagi nak buat kerja!(Mintak2 tak terlajak tidur) Whoa!

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Habis dah bahgian anak! Masuk radio, orang cakap lepak je bahgian ni but there's so many things to learn man! Ceh, kat dlm bidang ni takkan pernah tak banyak kott nak belajar. Hehe..


Busy busy busy. Sigh. Bosan betul .
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saya lah orang si bosan.

hello! ive been very very busy for this past 6months. takde lah busy gila sampai tak sempat nak update blog ni,cuma there's nothing to tell. i live in the same cycle for the past 6months. i tell u, clinical years in makassar wasnt that wonderful considering im so pandai susun cycle susah2 dulu without cuti. so yeah,salah sendiri, cant complain much.

basically bangun pagi, follow up patient, kena marah, crazy work shift, tons to study and catch up, tau tau dah exam.

so yeah. bila ada time nak update pon cam hah?nak update apa? sama je routine. kan?! takkan i tell u guys i makan meggi hari hari sbb tak sempat nak makan/malas nak pergi cari proper food. cam bosan gila kan!! atau today saya cpr or kejang or stuff kan? boring gila kan!!! yeah, saya lah si bosan.


so this week is my last week in pediatric department horreeeyhh!! then after this 3 bulan department yang quite easy stuff mcm radiology (CAMT WAIT!) and dermatology.


pediatric department. hmmmm.... i used to love kids. i used to love the subject so much, tapi bila dah masuk , i think i tak suit lah. tatau lah system sini yg cam *%^#^# atau.....i donttt knowwww . mungkin masalah dalaman. sila hiraukan itu.


department ni mmg really brings out true colour of everyone. mungkin pressure yang diberikan oleh resident atau supervisor atau oleh parents kepada children itu sendiri. yeah yeah everyone needs perfecto cannot salah or dang ur fault, why so idiot meh???


so yeah,cita cita untuk jadi pediatrician hancus bekecai. i mean, i cant work in this kind of situation. mungkin saya kurang productive bekerja dgn pressure mcm ni. mungkin itu kekurangan diri saya.


friday ni exam! (as if every post aku ada aku tulis takde exam . pffftsss ) wish me tons of luck.


p/s jika saya lucky saya mau amek patient nephrotic syndrome!(tlg lah jgn dpt patient leukemia, need to know the standard/high risk procedure doses and all dan saya hanya hapal surface je.. grrr) wish me luck!

Department anak paling tak best!!! Eeeeeeee!!!!!

apabila semua perkara dijadikan alasan

sakit hati tak mcm tgh semangat semangat nak belajar ni,dah bukak buku ikat kain putih kat kepala(mcm org jepun suka buat tuh) tiba tiba, time tu ah nak lapar,time tu lah nak terkencing/berak.


Lepas tu, bila dah kenyang,ngantuk, terus tidur.atau lepas berak atau kencing terus dah terlupa page mana kita baca then takde mood terus tidur. Mission nak belajar untuk hari ini? FAILED!!!

Mengeluh lagi lah mcm ni! (Tak habis habis annoying siot aku!)

emergency room day 3.

Hai hai! Pukul 2am di UGD (unit gawat darurat). I kena jaga dari pukul 9mlm sampai 2petang besoknya. So sleepy. Nak sleep sleep tp baru nak tertidur atas meja ni, ada patient baru, baru nak tertidur ada keluhan, baru nak tidur dengar ada patient jerit jerit kat bilik bedah, dengar baby menangis. Bau, toksah cerita ah, selamba makan mcd dengan patient kaki diabetes wagner IV. Mmg bau terbaik. Oh tak kira lagi kena rectal touche, bau melena(berak warna hitam) mmg lagi ah terbaik. Kalau tak bernasib baik ada satu hari dapat sampai 10orang kena buat. Balik konon rasa tak lalu makan, tp lepas tu bantai makan tak ingat dunia.

Haihhh. I'm don't know what I'm doing here, but I don't learn anything pon. Can't they just give us more time to study instead of mental torture mcm ni.


oh mesti korang nak tau apa yang I buat kat emergency room ni sampai I rasa tak belajar apa2 ni. Bila ada patient baru, amek history taking,tanya dia sakit apa apa, then pemeriksaan fisik dia, then buat diagnosis dan budget2 apa pemeriksaan lab yang nak kena buat. Mcm kalau patient dgn sesak, buat lah X-ray, pemeriksaan darah dia(ni mmg standard ah) , or kalau rasa ada hepatomegaly/splenomegaly boleh lah usulkan usg abdomen and stuff like that. Then, report kat doctor yang bertugas, then kalau salah kena ah maki bodoh free free.

Kedengaran seperti menarik and best kan? Tidak lansung. Haha. I mean perlu ke belajar dengan hard way mcm ni. Ajar elok elok,tell us what to do and so on.perlu ke ajar kitorang dengan suruh kita buat sendiri,then salah maki maki. Seriously ah kan? Tak perlu kan?

The most tak best part is, bila ada patient critical, kena amek blood pressure every 15mins. Kalau patient critical sampai 4orang every 15mins,tak ke tak duduk lansung dok amek blood pressuree jeeee.

hah tu lah kerja saya tidak termasuk kerja kuli mengkuli yang lain.(Tlg pergi potostat,translate kan assignment diorng,belikan makanan diorng or just be sebelah diorng and diri all the time) Depends doc yang baik nanti dia ajar lah kalau patient ni ni buat apa apa, kalau doc yang mcm penat sbb yelah patient banyak sangat, dia just tak layan and buat kita mcm kuli dia je,tanya2 tak layan,parah kena bodoh lagi kang. Hahahahaha.

Haih nasib kasta terbawah. Haaiihhh.


Dah nak exam dah tatau apa dah belajar. :(

make a wish.

Dear god,

Saya mahu cuti 1minggu tanpa perlu pikir pasal clinical.takde masa nak study. :( I'm wasting my time here doing things that wasn't really my job. Cuti boleh tak?

Pretty please? I promise ill be good.

when everyday kena bgn pukul 5am.

Hai! Saya harini di poliklinik gastro!! Main main endoscope lah ni! Tp saya ngantuk,nak tidurr.

Harini saya jaga sampai 9mlm. Kena jaga wad emergency. Haihhh.. Boleh tak kalau saya harap takde patient masuk? Haha. *harapan*

Saya and shah terpisah. :( dia kena jaga hospital lain, I jaga hospital lain. So sorang2 menangis ah kitaaaa nanti. hehe ok gedik je lebih.

Dah minggu 6, tak study lagi. Damn damn damn.

Ngantuk. :(

when ur dream wasnt really a dream. it's called, Reality.

After one month working like a dog, saya dan sarah dpt holiday satu hari!yeeeaay!bgn pagi mcm tak caya je cuti.

On monday kena malapor ke Rumah Sakit Wahidin (hospital) and my jaga hours are getting less and less because well,kami minggu atas. (Seniority mmg sgt dipakai sini) but, exams are getting closer and closer !! And saya tak belajar apa2 lagi!


Oh my! Didn't I tell u,after I balik dr maros, banjir dekat my house, rosnah (motor orange saya) rosak.tak leh start engine!!!


And I got tons of work to do! Nak amek baju kat dobi!nak g buat hair spa lagi!(Ni paling important ni) nak g uruskan stuff for imigresen lagi!!

And rosnah decided to die on me today,on the very specific my one-day-holiday. Damn! Now I need to cari bengkel yang bukak on sunday!! Hish!

hello world!!

hye!! how you guys doing? great? good!


sorry for not updating this blog. been ages right? right!! im getting crazier and crazier here.

i just finished my LN (luar negeri) posting, in maros. someplace very very very far from makassar(ok fine, i lied. not that far, but still far lah) . and people talk using bahasa daerah. not bahasa indonesia. crazy i tell you! hehehhe (sekarang i dah tere dah cakap bahasa bugis.hehehe)

its my first bahagian!!internal medicine! at first mmg excited gila, but now, dah 5 minggu, its draining my energy and positivity each day.


Maros was ok. not that bad, not that far, and yet, so many exciting cases! the downfall is, we dont have doctors there. yerp, we (me and sarah nabila my posting mate) tercampak here being the doctor. i tell you crazy ok crazy. ada doctor, but we need to call them, and they cant always be there, they got so many thing going so takleh lah nak salah kan diorng.

but we, yang baru minggu 4, kena terus jadi doctor betul2, gila ok. ECG merangkak nak baca, and kat sini bahgian radiology tak membantu, every cases dia tulis kesan dia moderate bronchitis! dan hakikat patient tuh dah ada pleural effusion and emphysema!! seriously lah kan, belaja 3 tahun teori never same dengan dealing with patient. dalam book tak tulis what infus we need to give, berapa titis patient tu kena, bila kita nak bagi D5, bila kita salah diagnose rupa2nya dia just hypoglicemia je, atau patient tu syok sbb HBG dia 2g/dl!!!!(normal around 12-14)

let alone to handle cases in icu with cerebral malaria. pfftss.


opsiee boyfriend datang! gtg! later i sambung!

we have been so busy nak dating pon jarang2!