Kkn

tomorrow would be my last paper for the pre-clinical year. I must do my best. Saya tidak mahu fail anything.


Anyways, my body still in not in a good shape. I blame the global warming. Ha ha. Ok fine. I'm a lil bit stress so maybe that's why my immune system gone crazy.

Going.for.kkn.thingy.tomorrow.


Saya benci when there's something kacau my exam paper. Seriously. Do I really need to juggle between this two? Kept on attending kuliah pembekalan kkn while in the same time lari sana sini utk sit for exam.

life is hard and why lah they need to make life harder than it really should be?

Bayangkan, I need to catch bus utk pergi kkn pukul 7am while in the same date saya harus/wajib ada di faculty to sit my exam pukul 10am?


Nampak tak kebodohannya? Kemudian saya harus cari kereta sewa dan cari supir(driver) yang tau jalan pergi ke kampung kampung celah mana yang memang takde dalam map??!!!

And I need to urus all this while I got my final exam tomorrow??!!! And I'm not done yet with packing things.


See how stress I am right now?

I hate here. Like. The very the much.

Ciao.
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The accident.

Today wasn't a great day for me. But it was a life experience.

You see,being a medical student, I can't picture how it felt when in the real situation. All I know adalah teori dan teori dan seterus nya teori.. Which, not to belagak, I'm kinda good at.

So today,something happened. Shah accident. I actually was behind him (different motor lah of course) and suddenly this stupid motor,coming out of no where without giving any signals keluar je. And that time jalan berpasir, so to cut long story short, shah jatuh..

Omg I was terrified gila.mcm u see, accident in front of me, and orang itu adalah shah. Ok scary gila. I park at the side of the road. Helped him up. And orang orang jalanan angkat motor tuh.

And and and and and shah cannot bangun..he kept on pegang his pelvic bone and moaning about his pinggang..

(Ok time ni I panic gila) so I keluarkan all my phone tried to contact azman and anis, but diorng tak angkat.

Ok.and orang orang tepi jalanan ni nak tolong shah. Diorng angkat shah ke tepi..

Lepas tu ada ke, orang tuh nak urut pinggang shah?! Like seriously??!!!

And my confident tiba2 terus datang.I suruh orang orang jalanan tu semua ketepi.(I don't want some stupid jalanan do unnecessary things to shah which,will further harm him). I tanya shah, dia ok tak? He said pinggang dia sakit. I cam ok..I terus buat general inspection kat kaki dia. See all his pinggang and kaki.saya selak baju dia. Saya tengok if ada bruises or anything. Lepas tu palpate.

(Kepala saya time tuh takut dia pelvic fracture je and itu adalah worst case scenario. Pelvic fracture boleh menyebabkan internal bleeding dan boleh orang tu shock and boleh lost of consciousness dan itu sangat sangat sangat bahaya.super bahaya)

I kept on palpate..rasa if teraba abnormalities. Ok fine I did palpate kiri dan kanan sbb takut I tersalah palpate yang normal and abnormal..(Saya inexperience ok, saya baru budak teori)

Ok.shah ketika tu still tak leh gerak lagi. Then lepas palpate I cam, shit apa lagi aku kena buat ni.always, and always I tgk shah takut takut dia slowly unconscious.tp dia keep on cakap dia sakit.and that's a good sign.

In my head "ajan, kau dah belajar ni,you should know how to handle this.apa next weh apa next?!!!"

Then I check his sensory and motoric. Pegang ibu jari kaki, tanya,rasa tak and I did it all ikut procedure. Suruh dia gerak2kan jari kaki and all.

Omg I'm so awesome ketika itu. Everyone are giving me space. And mmg diorng trust gila apa yang I buat time tuh. And shah lah bengong, kept on moaning about his pinggang,can't seems find logic why I check his sensory and motoric nerve function...

So I chilled lah. Saya tahu dia just terseliuh pinggang dia, and nothing worst than that. So I bersihkan luka dia, help him up, and balik.

Whoaaaaaaaaaa..

Caya ah razan syazana. Although deep inside me I panic tak boleh belah, tp outside appearance calm and Control the situation. .mmg best ah..

Shah, awak jadi first patient trauma I.

Although nampak remeh kes ini,tapi still, its a life experience to me. Although I did nailed on my paper, and I know all the theory, tapi when it comes to the real life event, its different. Sangat sangat different.

Event like that won't give u 2hours to write about pelvic fracture.event like that won't give you 1 hour to finish 100 multiple choice question.

It needs split second to think and remain calm.. And more important thing, don't further harm the patient. If you don't know what to do, biarkan. Belagak pandai dekat situation macam tadi mmg sangat sangat tidak membantu.

*shah, get well soon. Its not your fault ok. Motor tadi tu yang bengong.

Got exam on wednesday. Tak habis belajar lagi. Bye!
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I need to be cruel to be kind.
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Don't read this.

Done with my lab exams. I think I did ok. It wasn't perfect full marks, tapi boleh lah.


Osce exam tomorrow..got to check some leprosy patient (penyakit kusta) and play with some tahi (yes,shit) and put it under microscope and need to diagnose penyakit apa.yeah, apparently unhas are trying to teach us jadi microbiologist pulak..haha..harap esok akan berjaya hasil specimen saya.

My final theory paper will be on wednesday. And by khamis I need to go to kkn..kkn ni kami semua perlu tinggal di kampung selama 2bulan.yes, freaking 2months..even makassar ni pon dah rasa mcm haram jadah takda apa2, ni dia campak lagi hulu mana lagi memang kampung betul betul selama dua bulan..untuk lakukan khidmat masyarakat..

Saya takut, but at the same time so damn excited.can't wait!!!

*gambar atas tersebut adalah gambar topi KKN yang hodoh gila which I need to wear for the whole 2 month.hahahaha...


Wish me luck people. Mwah!
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Max Ehrmann


Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.


Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.


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.bila nak exam baru nak homesick,baru nak stress. Hmmm..nak balik..nak mak,nak papa. Nak kakak, nak abang. :(


Nak malaysia. Rindulah.
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last subject before clinical year. Tropical diseases.

Been trying to finish all the cacings and parasites and nyamuk, but man,I ended on the bed slept for hours. Sometimes more than 5-6hours.

Tidak habis belajar lagi.please ajan. Serious lah sikit. :(
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Its official.

Mmg confirm, blog saya adalah tempat untuk mengutuk anis. Dan saya rasa bahagiA berbuat sebegitu.


Anis baru beli helmet baru. Mari kita bayangkan dia memakai helmet hodoh itu jom ?? OMG anis soooo cute. Cute,macam,kambing.mmg sebijik macam minah rempit dekat impak maksima.


Peace. Ciao.
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Picture 1# ate my breakfast, and suddenly I found myself looking deep into my cereals and let my mind wandering around a little bit,and guess what, saya rasa saya makan protozoa plasmodium malaria. Wtf kaan?? Tapi!mmg sebijik mcm plasmodium malaria..

Anyways, from that,I knew,I need to get out and hv some fun. To let my brain at ease and at least not to think that I'm eating a protozoa. Oh, don't ask about my csl, we don't some research on tahi,found cacing here and there. So yeah, I tell you sometimes looking at the blueberry jem reminds me off taik.

I know I know,jijik gila..hehehe.tp most of the time bila saya pikir saya gelak gelak je. Eeee teruk betul.

So, terus bbm anis, paksa dia ikut tgk karate kid!! She's like, "I don't know ajan, karate kid???!!! Best ke" ah. Dulik. Saya tarik dia tak kira!

so its a fun weekend after all, catching up with anis (ye.satu kelas pon susah nak gossip these days.gila belajar ah konon) and the guys were like so boring but pedulik apa,they got football match afterwards at night,so they can't complain.or else we tak kasik diorng tgk bola! Haha..

Shah belanja me frozen yogurt sbb saya good girl.thanks awak! Hehehehe.

Ok. Byebye.got homework!


*anis bukan salah aku gambar kau semua hodoh. Hahahahahaha


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Anis menjadi makcik.

Semalam kenduri tahlil at wawa's place.orang datang semua pakai jubah jadi alim,anis tak jumpa tudung (isk isk isk teruk betul) lepas tu dia pakai pon mcm mak minah mana ntah. Tanak ah ngaku kawan.lepas tu balun pisang molen satu pinggan tanak pass kat org lain. Teruk ah dia tuh. hahahaha.
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Finally I got myself a free weekend without doing anything. And dang,baru ingat my exams is just around the corner.wtf kan?

So semalam while everyone were busy watching opening ceremony wold cup/africa vs mexico, I was also busy,habiskan glee. Yeah,I'm so kuno like that..but nevertheless I loveeee the finale!! Saya nak tgk lagi lah! (Like I have time for that)

Damn busy man.I also didn't know what the hell I've been doing here since balik dari malaysia harituh.

Antara yang I buat haritu

: fogging kawasan kampung(that thing so damn heavy sumpah tak tipu...oh and the smell, omggggg, without the proper protection and all I guess I punya lung sama dah mcm org isap rokok)


: gv aids dkat budak yang kwashiokor. We gv them mcm this special biscuits, and formula susu yang contain minerals.


: melukis dan mewarna antropods and helminths (nyamuk nyamuk dan cacing-cacing) ni banyaaaak gilaaaaa,tak tipu.


: bertungkus lumus ganti puasa sbb tak terganti ganti lg dari tahun lepas. Pukul 10 mlm mcm tu I dah ngantuk sgt.

Exams lagi 2minggu tak start study lagi! Aaaaaaaa.m
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Busy busy busy busy week for me. :)
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